Call it a mid-life crisis…a quarter-life crisis…or call it whatever you want but just weeks before my big 3-0 I found myself croushing over, hyperventilating, as cold sweat bubbles formulated around my hairline.
Is this really it?!
Am I actually, really turning 30?!
What have I done with my life?!
Is it all enough?!
I couldn’t help but stop and reflect on the last 29 years of my life, wondering if I had truly lived enough, laughed enough, or even loved enough. I was shocked to find myself saying no to all those questions… and the many other ones that came thereafter. So here I was, just moments away from a mental breakdown when I decided that if there was ever going to the be “right” time for me to start over, this was going to have to be it. I was turning 30 after all, and there was never going to be a better year, or a better moment, to just simply pluck myself out of my world and literally just CLICK restart.
Let’s rewind for a second; Ever since I was a little girl I always imagined myself living in the big city, pursuing my career as writer, and well simply put, being extraordinary! Never did I think that 29 years later, I’d still be living in this no-name of a city just simply co-existing. Somewhere in the midst of trying to be extraordinary, I somehow just ended up being ordinary. Where did I go wrong?
So, I decided to quit. To quit on my unhappiness, to quit on my negativity, to quit on my excuses, and to quit on my procrastination. Right there and then, I decided to quit on my current life and spend the next 365 re-writing a better one!
Makz.Quest 
Its so beautiful… So inpiring… Wish to read more like these… Keep up the great work👌👍
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate it!
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Great start!
Would absolutely love to read more about you😄
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Thank you so much! More writing to come later today! I enjoyed yours too!
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I can’t wait to to read about your journey. I know you are going to do amazing things. You are truly an inspiration to me!
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Thank you! I really really really appreciate all of the support!
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Beautiful and amazing things are ahead! 😀
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Thank you so much! Please stay tuned for more 🙂
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Good luck on just doing it, but you got to do it. I enjoyed the passion of your writing. I wrote my first cartoon blog at age 65 which is kinda like 30, but different. Keep on.
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@patbrunson Thank you so very much for your kind words! It truly is inspiring to hear such positive feedback. My whole life I had been afraid to publicize my writing, worried of the criticism that I may receive! So thank you so much for adding to me inspiration to keep on writing!
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Thank you!!! It really means a lot to me!
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Just wait until you hit 40! I’m getting ready to hit 44 actually. I’m trying to be cool about it but really it’s kinda terrifying.
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Hahahaha! Do you think it becomes a lot easier? I mean, once you pass the first thresh hold of 30?
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I think life in general is made of ups and down. Sometimes great things happen and sometimes horrible things happen, It never seems to stop and everyone I know goes through both. I suppose it all depends on how a person chooses to handles it.
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I couldn’t agree more. I’m a strong believer in fate and destiny and that was meant for you wasn’t meant for anyone else. This includes the tragedies as well, but it is what we make of what is destined for us!
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I like the inspiring feeling with this post. It’s a great piece. I wish you luck as you navigate your 30’s.
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Thank you so much! I really appreciate that!
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And there it begins… with a decision. You did the hardest part right there and now, you are set in motion.
~Vicisittas
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I just hope that I can continue to find my pace 🙂
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